I was talking to a neighbor earlier this afternoon. Her and I both got selected for jury duty this month. She got called in, I havent yet. She was telling me that there is a case that is a difficult one. “They are only keeping the men who have daughters” she said. “You don’t have a daughter do you?” I laughed. “No…huh uh.” “Good, then you shouldn’t get picked to stay on…Im glad I only had sons” she said…and trailed off into another thought.
One second, one word, one moment…it was gone.
I know. I know. I know. I KNOW. It doesn’t really matter. She probably doesn’t care, it wont make or break anything. But I denied it. I said no. I said I did not have a daughter. Not children, but a daughter. I totally…
I don’t even know what to think really.
Perhaps…I let her down. Maybe she wonders what kind of a father I am, to deny her. Or maybe she doesn’t really care. I don’t know anymore. I just…don’t know.
Im sorry baby. Im so sorry.
